2602 we became one
2603 we had the accident
2604 we quarrelled for the first time
2605?

why isit that. i still cry when i see our pics.
why isit that i love s, but somehow, its not wholeheartedly.
i want my heart back, for s. but where is it?

something's telling me that, im gng to screw up again.
i dont wanna hurt anyone again.
i just wanna settle down. im 18 !

i thought i can stop caring about you.
but everynight, before i slp, its you i think about.
i wanted so badly, to know how you are doing. what you are doing.
i dont care ! do i ? can i ?

how many times have i cried in front of s, because of you.
and then the guilt, of even thinkg of you when im with s.
and thennn. the confusion in my heart, every day.
how i feel ( my true feelings ) when im alone
are you feeling the same way too?

all i know is tht its over.
i dont wanna think about it.

addicted ~
its like i cant breathe. its like i cant feel anything. nothing but you. im addicted to you.

addicted? is that the correct word?
ive been lying to myself. trying so hard. telling myself that you suck / i hate you / butttt..
all thissss. is not enough..
i dont love you anymore. i dont ! its justttt. my heart. i dunno.

haih.

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no food every alternate days, cn i stick to it ? o.0
jy bahs ! work tmr :D:D keep my mind off FOOD

anywayyyy.. 3 more days to go to baby&my 1st YEAR ANNIVERSARY ! hahas :D:D ^^

waiting for baby now at his house :( leilei didi & clement just left :( gng to amk later yay !

starting work tmr ! time for money to start rolling in ! hahas and thn next month im gng to find another job ^^ together with baby bah. & thn we wont be so tight anymore & i can CLEAR OFF MY DEBTS !

diet plans baby diet plans are gng down ! when am i ever gng to reach my target weight T.T

after so long, im still VERY attached to japanesque ( http://lilmoongodess.deviantart.com/art/Japanesque-coverup-40798018 ) therefore i think i wont ever regret unless if its turns out to be shitty.. butttt i just have to figure out how to use it to cover up.... o.0 when its face is not supposed to be inked! T.T

and i absolutely hartsxzxz karincoma.deviantart ! MUST CHECK OUT MAN !

pavillion is really fucking cool ! its like they have every single shop ! lv burberry hermes whatever. & thn they have topshop forever 21 ( fcking big one ! ) cotton on blah blahblah. its like 10 times better than ion la ! o.0 seriously o.0 after pay go together okay baby :D we will shop till we drop ! :D:D

gng back tmr le ! gonna miss this place. but of course, i wanna be home, back to the warmth of my baby's arms ! i miss your fats baby ! was damn cold in genting ! you fats wil be damn good insulator la =x hahas ! yay gonna be back in like 24 hours ! cant wait :D:D

ive decided to train up in pool & thn start playing billard! wanna be a zai kia ! hahas. dardardy's bday is coming ~!! hahas :D cant wait to see you ! <3

RAHHHH gonna go bathe now. and thn do my mask ! hahas. see everyone tmr ! :D:D